Observations Tuesday 10 MAR 2011

I remember getting my first Flair pen, and thinking that I would then be able to sketch and write down everything that occurred in my life.

Well, you can tell how well that worked out. Even if I had, I would have even more useless material to be transcribed to electronic format.

Since the last time I have done an observation, the world has come to an end several times. My long spell of respiratory illness has made me miss the many of the events and observations I would have normally picked up on, and noted. Every day has been a doomsday like any other. I'm still recovering my endurance, and my willingness to go out and do things needs regeneration. It's amazing just how much you miss by not being present in my friends, and co-worker's lives.

I do not miss the political boards.

Speaking of which, I have been reading a fascinating book called "Forgive For Good", by Dr. Fred Luskin. Among other insights, my need to be right all the time is really is a scream against an unfair world that has screwed me over. Classic Adult Child Of Alcoholic behavior. The political boards, on which I have trounced my opponents with correct prediction after prediction, has not altered *their* behavior in the least. They're drunks. I rented out too much space in my head to a grievance against their stupidity. And I was stupid to let it run much of my life. It is time to forgive- not to condone bad things/stupid people, but to not let them have power over me.

Good news: My employment situation is improving. I'm taking a position closer to home, and on that will give me the time to take classes, and continue my education. I even got a (trivial) pay raise. Scruffy may even see me at lunch now.